a little bit about me...

I thought I would take a second and tell a little about...well...me!
I have been thought allot in my life, not as much as some, but for me allot. When I was young I was a ballerina and loved my little black body suit, I can still close my eyes and see my dance studio and all my little friends in my class, oh I was in love with it! then the unthinkable happened, I was in a bike accident and it left me with no skin in my left ankle, in a wheel chair and unable to dance the years passed and I started to put my passion for dance in the back on my mind and I took on competitive swimming, I had been a swimmer all my life and had spent more time in the water since my injury so it seemed the thing to do, I had a competitive edge and loved the rush of the race I was in my element every time I hit the water, but one weekend before a big swim meet that we had been training hard for I slipped and fell while goofing around one afternoon and to my dismay I torn the ligaments in my leg and was put in a cast, unable to compete, it crushed me, I had to watch from the side lines, not good for someone who is as competitive as me! that brought me down hard! and really I think that's were I things got worse for me, no being able to do the things I loved really took its toll, I started eating when I was depressed and unhappy and then I could do nothing to take the weight off that I was gaining because I would be in pain and slowly it just become habit, if I was unhappy I filled it with food, if I was board I would fill my time with food, quickly becoming depressed with how I was looking and feeling and it would start all over again. Now hear I sit today, unhappy, unhealthy but with a hope to move out of this funk and get back to the me I really am! not many people in my life know about the things I have done in my life because its not something I talk about much but really they are a big part of who and why I am what I am today. I often wonder what my life would be life If I were still a dancer or a swimmer, but really I am both just not on a big stage or at a swim meets, I am both in my heart and in my living room ;) I find people oftener underestimate my ability and I tend to not try because if I don't do well I am doing exactly what people were expecting from me so its easier to just not feel into that, but I hope that once day I can show myself that I am still the same person and the inside that used to do all those things, because I miss that girl and think its about time she made a comeback!