Odd is an understatment !

Well I have now been tagged 2 times for the same thing so I guess I better get going on my list of 6 things about myself that are a little odd and you may not already know...so hear it gose

1) I constantly worry all day long that I may not smell as good as I could, I love to smell wonderful , anything less is just not good enough.
2) I am fobic of phoning people, I get all nervous its crazy! paola knows all about that!
3) I am oddly inlove with my puppy, she is like my own kid...only no dippers and no crying and I can leave her home alone:)
4) I can not swallow sea weed, it really is tragic becouse I can eat anything with sea weed in it or I choke, it really is quite sad!
5) I like to turn on music and sing and dance in my living room, mostly 80's classic's and some times oprah, neather of witch I am very good at but its relaxing. I know alot of people do this but most people know me as quiet and with drawn, and really I am quite spunky when Im in my element [livingroom:)]
6) I do a killer impretion of an east indean, I only do it for my family, cuz I am not proud of it but it is pritty darn funny when I do!

well there you go, maybe you learnd somthing new maybe you dident, but now its your turn.....
Crystal
Megs
Lindsee
Shanie
Jean
Richard
cant wait to hear all the fun little odd things you have to share with us!

a little bit about me...

I thought I would take a second and tell a little about...well...me!
I have been thought allot in my life, not as much as some, but for me allot. When I was young I was a ballerina and loved my little black body suit, I can still close my eyes and see my dance studio and all my little friends in my class, oh I was in love with it! then the unthinkable happened, I was in a bike accident and it left me with no skin in my left ankle, in a wheel chair and unable to dance the years passed and I started to put my passion for dance in the back on my mind and I took on competitive swimming, I had been a swimmer all my life and had spent more time in the water since my injury so it seemed the thing to do, I had a competitive edge and loved the rush of the race I was in my element every time I hit the water, but one weekend before a big swim meet that we had been training hard for I slipped and fell while goofing around one afternoon and to my dismay I torn the ligaments in my leg and was put in a cast, unable to compete, it crushed me, I had to watch from the side lines, not good for someone who is as competitive as me! that brought me down hard! and really I think that's were I things got worse for me, no being able to do the things I loved really took its toll, I started eating when I was depressed and unhappy and then I could do nothing to take the weight off that I was gaining because I would be in pain and slowly it just become habit, if I was unhappy I filled it with food, if I was board I would fill my time with food, quickly becoming depressed with how I was looking and feeling and it would start all over again. Now hear I sit today, unhappy, unhealthy but with a hope to move out of this funk and get back to the me I really am! not many people in my life know about the things I have done in my life because its not something I talk about much but really they are a big part of who and why I am what I am today. I often wonder what my life would be life If I were still a dancer or a swimmer, but really I am both just not on a big stage or at a swim meets, I am both in my heart and in my living room ;) I find people oftener underestimate my ability and I tend to not try because if I don't do well I am doing exactly what people were expecting from me so its easier to just not feel into that, but I hope that once day I can show myself that I am still the same person and the inside that used to do all those things, because I miss that girl and think its about time she made a comeback!

one more thing...

just one more thing about my big day, I have to give a shout out to Lindsee who was the only frined that go me a real somthing, and I LOVE it, she knows what I like ;) thanks girl and happy B day to you too!!

So Far So Good...

Well my live well eat well project is under way and all is going well, bit by bit it gets easyer and easyer and I look forweard to the long turm pay off, to help me along I have started taking Nani necter, and I cant say that is tastes good but it is supposed to be great for you, and I will keep you posted on how it dose. its bed time but I will keep you posed on my progress!

Just another day....

Well I write this post, 7 days after my big day....my 25th birthday that is. and to me it was a big one, very big...but I cant say it was the best I have ever had, rather disapointing if you ask me, dont get me wrong, the day itself was wonderful, I got to sleep in and go for mexican for lunch and then my Fam. took me to the Keg for dinner, it was great! my sister got me concert ticks and my mom helped me pay for my my Vaca. it was all great, but thats were the greatness ends. now for most, a birthday is just another day, but in my world, in my head its not, its MY day, and I would think that it would be a day most people would take the extra effort to call and say hi, but for me thats not how it went, it seems as I get older I get less and less, I dont mean acctual gifts, though the only ones I got are the ones I listed above, ones that left me with great memories but nothing to hold in my hands, I dident get anything from anyone outside my house, no phone calles no notes or cards, I got one e-mail that simply said 'happy birthday' and I got a few congrats while we were out and about but really from the people in my life that mean the most, nothing. Most of the people I know have more friends and partys and such, and I guess I was hoping that maybe this year would be my year but no luck! I thought all those years of great gifts and loving cards and such would finaly pay off, but well...no luck....maybe thats just how it was ment to be, and I dont write this to get pitty from my friends or family I just need to get out my feelings in some way without pointing fingers and anyone, this is more of a personal vent than pointing fingers , well I think I will stop hear, I have made may point and will head to bed feeling a little better to get that of my chest but a little disapointed as I know I have a friends birthday coming up, just a reminder of all I dident get of my "just another day".

P.S Thanks to Crystal for picking up the tab at Saabies, it was great to catch up!

The 8 week Plan

Wahooo! I am back fresh from VaCa. and boy was it well needed! I will fill you in on all the good details in a future blog , but today its all about my 8 week plan, yup I have a plan and I am hoping that like I have said befor, but posting it on hear, I will be held more accountabul! this is what my plan is going to look like, starting Sunday (I cant start befor then cuz my birthday is on Thursday and that would just suck! ) I am going to cut Sugar from my diet and most meat, only having a small amout of white meat and fish as well as cutting out most dairy and Introducing vitamin/miniral and protine suplaments every morning. ontop of this is my 5 day a week work out plan, and I am getting my self 100 min of tanning for my birthday! with all of this I should be on the road to being fit and fab by the time summer hits. and just to make sure I dont fall of the bandwagen I am going to set up a reward for myself like maybe a small trip or a shopping spree of some kind, ooooooh this going to be fun! wish me luck, and I'll keep you posted! Ciao

If I had 1 wish...ok maybe 12!

Today was a hard day, one I new would come and will be followed by meny more just like it, it started of great, up early with the sun, lazed around in bed until 9 and then sprang up to injoy my day off, so I grabed my two dogs and headed to the lake for a walk, we had a great walk! it was beautiful, sunny and just a little crisp, the smell of damp earth and the wide open yander just calling us...we worked hard, made a little swet pour, not much but just enough and when we got back to the car, about an hour and a half after we had left it, and we got in I looked at my reflection, and thought, it was the same me as when I got out, and this is not the first time this has happend, every time I go to the gym or eat "right" for a week, I still see the same me, so when I was sitting there today looking at my self, I thought, If I had one wish, it would be that I would see all this hard work paying off....instantly !(ok that probably wouldent be my 1 wish, but it would be in the 10 ten) How on earth am I suppoed to keep on with all this if it dosent even look like anything is happening? Any way the rest of the day was followed by me avoiding seeing myself in any way, and came down to just comeing home, its sad and it sucks, I really really hope this hard work starts to show its self cuz I hurt all over and I need to know that its worth the pain! well thats it for my little rant, a small bump in my road!

I dont know If I have ever taken the time out to tell you about my crazy cuz! well I have two but the one I am going to tell you about is 16 years old and has been playing LACCROSS, since he could walk, now he is a goalie and is playing with guys that are 2-3 years older than he is, ( if you dont know sports, thats a big deal!) and is wowing even the tuffest critics, hes amazing, last summer he was chosen to play for the island team for the BC Summer games, and not only did he lead the games is most goals saved but they won the gold medal, but remaind undefeted after 8 games! AMAZING! ok so lets get to the point of all of this, he has come to point were he is waiting to be drafted, now normaly you would have to wait till you were 18 or 19 to be drafted and legaly he cant play with the team that drafts him for two more years, but he is in such hight demand that he has 3 teams that want to sign him now so that he doset get lost to some other team in the mean time! Its only 6 days till we find out who have won the draft pic, we are all sitting on pins and needles waiting for the out come, his brother and I have offerd to move to were ever her gets drafted to so he has a place to stay during the season, but we are all hoping that he get to stay and play for the shamrocks!

Good luck Scottie!

The Boys After the won The Gold!

Scottie Refreshing between periods!

A New Day...

Today is a new day, well thats the way I am trying to look at it anyway, turning my back on the past and looking forweard with a new zest and a little ambition. my goal is to make this the best year ever, now that january is gone and I feel like the year is well under way, its time to get things going, and going I am...all the way to Palm springs...YA HOOO! some time a way to refresh and renew! I have set my sights hight for this year and a trip is just the start, I have commited to doing the TC10K again and plan on doing bettter than I did last year! I am also going to do the 24 hour relay and the to it for Dad 8k, all part of my new heathly & happy living plan. thanks to Paola who dragges me out to the gym on the days when I dont really want to go, but know I should, and for keeping my coumpany when I feel like I could stay there all day, man it feels good to swet! anyway, moving on, I have decided to take this year by the horns and tell it whos boss, I am going to live for me and not for everyone elts, this year is about getting healthy and loving ME! ok so this may sound a little self absourbed but really I think you know what I mean, I usualy spend most of my time worrying about everyone elts and then I think oh ya, what about me, everyone elts is happy and I am falling appart, so now that is going to change, I know god has a plan for me and I think I am ready to pour everything into him and I and take care of what has been left to wither, I dont imagine this is going to be an easy year but its going to be worth it! I plan on leaving 2007 on a hight! well its a little late, but happy new year! and thank you all for just being you, you all mean so much to me and have helped me get to this great place, I'll be sure to keep you posted, Sarah

Shes really gone....

Well, its over, shes gone, it has been a few days and I dont know that I can say that it has gotten any easyer to get up in the moning, not being greated by my little tess as she had done every morning for 11 years. I miss her more than I think most could understand, few feel the true bond that I have with my wee pets, and I thank God for Jim, is really knows what I am going threw, and I also thank him for my little dayzee-mae, and all the joy and smiles she brings me, she helps me to be happy and move on, slowly but surely. well thats all I can say for now....I love you tess, I know you are happy, you will live forever in my hear and in my dreams.Good bye my love....

Good Bye My Love...

Well, I always wonderd what it would be like to know that you days are numberd and now I have avery small look into that world, thougth she knows nothing that is going on, other than somthing is a little off, my tess has seen her last snow, her last Tuesday, she has warmd herself in the afternoon sun for the very last time, her final days on earth I hope are good ones, it kills me to know i will spend them away from her, working 12 hour days, I am trying to be strong, not crying infront of anyone, but sometimes it just to much to keep in, we have had 9+ good years together, she is my little angel, always willing to snugel when you are having an off day, greating every guest who comes to visit and always making them feel welcome. she hasto have the loudest pur in the world, letting you know just how happy she is to be sleeping on your lap. but these days are not so happy for her, though she dose not know really what it going on, she knows somthing is not right inside her, she has cancer, and has began to pee blood all over the house as the cancer is in her blader, making it unable to hold liquid for very long. this makes our house smell very bad, not that the love for my cat is not stronger than the smell, but it soon if not already, will becoume painful for her to pee and move for that matter, she has gotten quit thin, making her visualy not quite herself, more evidence that the end is soon to come, little dose she know, that this is it, that fat lady will sing for the last time this friday, I think when it comes time for me to go, I would like it to happen quickly, this knowing is way to hard. I must go, it is hard to type though teary eyes, and time with my tess is priceless and I need every second ....her are a few photos of my love from the summer, she is so beautiful its going to be hard to say good bye...........

my little love

This is a crazy pic of my little Dayzee Mae after a fun filled run around our back yard, she looked much better after standing under the hair dryer for 20 min to melt the snow and warm he little feets. (she is sticking her touge out becouse she just found out she starts school on sunday)

worth your time in gold!

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