Sick Day

Today was not a good day, but I made the best of it, I got up this morning feeling like crap, so I did what I have only done twice in my 61/2 years working for Howerd, I called in sick!! Yes!! it felt great! though it took me a long time to make that phone call, an hour and trying to get ready for work with out crying, and stressing about how I was going to turn the whole day upside down for the drama queen who happend to be working, but I mussterd up the energy and talked myself into it and it was great! I was so happy I did, I ran back up to my room, I slipped back into bed and closed my eyes, oh did that feel great!! all snuggeld up with my wee puppy we stayed in bed for hours, now its lunch time, not that I can say I am feeling all that up to eating but she is, so hear we are, shes munching away.... then its back to bed, oh just the thought makes me smile ....I will leave you with these fun pics....take care


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These next to pics are of my dear sweet Dayzee-mae cought in the act of drinking my glass of milk while I went to the kitchen, and then the sad look she gave me when she realized she was busted, my dose she need a bath!





Kaylee, Karistiia and I spent the day taking fun pics around town, the first is one of the better! the second is just for fun ! cant wait to get out and do it again, it was a blast, wet butts, giggleing till out tummys hurt, hanging from trees and falling of swings, ah good times!





AH, power nap with the puppy, came home from an opening shift at work and had a rest on the couch, the puppy decided to join me!

a pic says a thoused words, just not always the ones you want!

These are just some fun Pics from the Past few months, hope you injoy!


~My Dayzee-mae (3 months old)~

~Me and My Moms Twin~

~a sunny cold day at Beach~

~ Kira ~

~Me and My Home-Girls~

~Me and Paola at the Thriftys Party~

Define the word "take'n" - Just A Silly Girl With a Silly Question

I am in a bit of a silly girl mood right now and that is were is funny question comes from....you see everyone longs (or almost everyone) to be able to say "sorry. I'm take'n" but what really dose that mean, I know that once you have said your "I Do's" it has a very clear meaning, but in the modern dating world what dose it really mean, some girls would get quit mad if you told them you thought there boy was a qutie and that you may have a small crush on him, girls are just like that, boys one the other hang I think like I when all the other guys think hes got "the Girls" now I ask you this, Is it really so bad to think another girls boy is cute? I mean its not like I am talking about jumping him the first second we are alone, I mean really cute, like cute cute not HOT I want to jump you cute, but like ...umm... he gives you butterflys when he looks at you with just a little smile, come on girls you know what I;m talking about. well as you may have guessd I have that small crush and I cant even really understand why I am sharing this on the world wide web, but he is inface a super cutie and he is the boy of a girl I know, I would not go as far as to say we are good friends but we are co-workers and are friends in a co-worker kinda way, but I am sure she would never talk to me again if she ever knew, so this is out little secreat:) I am not going to get all gushy and tell you everything about him and go over the top talking about him, but what I have been thinking about, and what made me come up with the question... what dose take'n mean...this second question...are they really off the market if thay are just dating? I mean its not a done deal, they havent read the fine print and singed on the line yet right? or is this all just wishfull thinking? like I said I am in a very silly girl mood, and just had to chatter at someone about this, and this seemed like the best place, so I am sorry if nothing this far has made any scence but I understand my thoughts and really am only trying to justify them to myself. so cheers to cute boys and hears to hoping the right one is on his way!


Its time for this silly giggly girl to hit the pillow, but in closing, hear is another thought for today...we never really ever realize how meany people we touch in our life until its us that needs a little lift, and we never really know that we are giveing someone the lift they need until they tell you when you are the one in need, its kinda this crazy cat and mouse game of life and a great one! there is always someone who needs you more than you need them and there is always someone who you need more than they need you, its great, not perfict or ideal but great! love and Hugs....Lizzy

Friends & More...

I some times wonder the real meaning of friendship, is it what you give to someone in there life, or is it somthing that they give you in yours, or is it a shared, give and take? I would hope and always thought it was the last but I find this not always ture, I find as I go through my life I know less and less about the people I call my friends, I learn some things are half truths and that there are some things, big things I have every heard about befor, and I find out from someone one who I dident even know was conciderd a friend. I seem to be the go to girl the one everyone runs to when times are bad or tuff or when there is nothing todo, so somthing is needed. I am always the one bilding everyone up, telling them how great they are and yet at the end of the day I sit and ask why, I am sitting there all alone, knowing nothing about my friends and exhasted from working so hard to make the world happy. though I have to pause in the middle of this to say I have one friend who I love to death, who has been througth her fair share of tuff times and knows what its like to be "friendless" and I dont know what I would do with out her! I really have to learn to call her more and answer my phone when she calles ( I am really bad at ansewring my cell phone!) chicky pooh, I hope you know how much you mean to me!! anyway moving along....I dont expect any relationship to be rosie, nore should anyone elts, life is full of tuff times and they come and go, some being tuffer than the rest, but you would think it would not be to much to ask to have someone who would be in your life good AND bad, I have no one to share with. I have been trying to plan a trip on or around my 25ht birthday, but I can not find on person who is willing to come, many have entertaind the thougth but no one with say yes to comming with me, thanks guys! you wont even go on vacation with me! you know is it so much to ask to have someone tell you there going to apply to go to school and that they might quit the job you fought, pushed and pulled to get them. I little notice would have been great, finding out from someone elts, not so great! and I could go on and on that is just one example, I am not frustrated not at all! ! !

Thought I also have to say that while I offten 6ask god why I have peopel in my life that treat me like this, I often....rather always thank him for so meny things, I have 3 great girls I get to spend time with and mentor every month and its great, its so fun seeing them grow with god and with earch other, becoming friends in a way I could only hope for, I thank god for my family and how close we are and for all the things I have been able to do in my life. I have so meny questions I wish I could sit and have a coffee with god and get some answers but its not that easy and in a way I am glad, in other ways it hurts, but its all for a reson. and for that I am greatful. well I have unloaded for a day and now I must go...but I promis to update much more offten, thanks for the vent.. ciao

Thick as Thieves

Its funny how one day can pass so fast and others can take forever, today was one of those days that happend to fast, at yet alot happend, I saw a movie that reminded me just how lucky I have been in my life up to this point. how things can change in a blink of an eye, not that it changes the little things eating away at my insides, but it dose make my grass look a little greener, I also heard a great song today, one that has quickly become my theam song of life, I will tell you more about it later. I also got to spend some time with a friend who maybe needs me just as much as I need her, she is going through alot, a divorce, again I am reminded of the things that are right in my life and how quickly things can change in the life of someone who seems to have everything going for them, this was that kind of family, she is a beautiful mom and wife who has an amzing voice and he is an amazing man, with wisdom beyond his years and a great friend to meny who loves the fact that he is a dad, and there little girl a spitting image of both, in apperince and personality, they were amazing, I wont say why or how but it is in fact over, and as each day gos by you realize what that means, there first christmas apart in 13 years, a moms first christmas with out her little girl, its all very grounding. I also realized how much my relationship with my sister is to me. my mom, her twin, my grandmother, my sister and I went for lunch today, and looking around the table I realized that my mom and her sister had spent a life time together and were nothing alike, one is family first the other is herslef first, this is the one time I am happy to say I am like my mom...my sister and I, I would like to think, would cross millions of miles on a regular bases to see each other and I am sure we would talk daily for as long a we could, and I love it, I hope it never changes, I am sure as we get older and have more involved lives we will shorten out visits and phone calls but I am sure there will still be a daily check in, weather it be by e-mail or phone call, and then we look at my mom and her sister, they can go months without talking, if it were not for my cousen we may not see them for months but thankfully he plays a sport and we see each other 2-3 times a week from march till july and then it dwidels off again until next season, its tuch and go, a phone call hear an e-mail there and if were lucky, lunch! but then theres a catch, we have to go to my aunt, she would not come to us, I could go on and on but I think you get the point, I love my sister and hope we alway stay close, thick as thieves! well I have rembeld long enough, today was a day of revelation, of understanding and of looking forweard in life, what comes next, who knows....life is a novel with the ending ripped out...until tomorrow.....ciao

Crazy Dog Lady

I offten wonder if every life is as borning as my own, one would think that from the out side I live a full and rich life, with no real issues, but the truth lies under the fake smile and kind words, hiden benith an atemped at a pritty face, undering the little personality anyone ever see's. the truth, about this world travler, and child of god, is that there is little self love to be found, there is little reason for self love, I am the last of my friends to find that specile someone, not that I have that meny friends, but of the token few I am the last, never been kissed or cuddeld, or given a worm hug buy anyone other than my parents. its at sad exsitence and the question I ask myself is why?? how do I change?? what do I change?? the whole fabrice of who I am?? that would take years upon years! and so I keep on being ...well...me! and everyonce and again I shock the heck out of someone and say somting I wouldent normaly say or do something I normaly wouldent do, I have pritty much come to grips with the fact that I may well be alone for the rest of my life, but deturmend to not become the crazy cat lady I have adopted a little dog, and so I will be the crazy dog lady, I treat her as my own child would be treated, she is spoield rotten, she has clothing and jackets, days at the spa and so meny toys you just couldent count them all, all in her very own toy box, its sick I know, but its somthing for me to do and it keeps my mind off all the other hard things in life. and the hardest thing in my life right now, is feeling alone, all alone, and if my little puppy can make me forget about that for just a few seconds, its all worth it. and I know you are probably thinking I am silly or if you had knowen this was how I was feeling, well I can tell you there is nothing anyone can do for me, life sucks, so wear do I go from hear......I keep being me, smiling and saying I;m fine how are you, trying to change the inside one day at a time, and maybe just maybe, when I'm 52 I will find that speacal someone! I really have to say that the thought of it makes me smile, I mean really smile, my eyes glow a little, and my heart warms at the thought. some one to hold you on a bad day or injoy the warmth of the summer sun, some one to dance with and giggle with, share secrets and snuggles, disscover far off places and hidden trails, walk well know paths and not be afraid to try somthing new, see the world or spend the whole day in bed. to have that would be a blessing and a dream come ture, I would be one happy camper, no longer the lone ranger.