It seems as though time is flying, it feels like just yesterday it Christmas and now here we are half way through march, I cant say that I am enjoying the fact that time is going by so quickly, though I can hardly wait for the warmth of summer! Alot has happened in the few short weeks that have passed since my last visit hear.
I have tried to buy a condo, that did not go so well but I still hold out hope and believe that this just was not the one for me.
I have lost a dear co-worker, he passed unexpectedly(I don't think its really even sunk in yet) and we are all still trying to deal with the loss of such a funny, stubborn and loving man, he is deeply missed.
I have also started to grow apart from my computer (the one I am using now is my work computer, that I am stuck at for 10hrs a day) but my home computer is starting to collect dust. One reason being that I have found the things that I though would make me happy (facebook, MSN, Myspace and so on) are the things that are really pulling me down, and make me very very unhappy, though I do still check them from time to time when I walk away I find myself feeling defeated and low, yesterday I finally put my finger on why I was feeling that way. While clicking around on other peoples facebook pages I would read all the comments people had made and look through there photo albums at the things they are doing, all the while comparing myself to them and becoming bitter and unhappy, in that moment I though " I don't need to feel this way, I am much happier with out this crap" and decided to step away, and I have to admit its been great. I spend more time doing "stuff" and getting out and about, even if its by my self, its still a good time!
On another note, I become another year older today, I am now the ripe old age of 26, yup, I said it 26! I am truly starting to feel old, mostly because I don't feel like I have anything to show for the last 26 years of my life. I have seen many places and things and have made great memory's and I guess that's really what counts but I cant do nothing for ever, so I guess the next step is to figure out what to do with whats left of my life, and I will be sure to let you know what I come up with, for now I just have to decide between doing something that I like and something that will make me money(so I can do the things I like) I guess you could say this is a new chapter I am about to begin, so happy reading!
Until next time....ME:)
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