Well, I always wonderd what it would be like to know that you days are numberd and now I have avery small look into that world, thougth she knows nothing that is going on, other than somthing is a little off, my tess has seen her last snow, her last Tuesday, she has warmd herself in the afternoon sun for the very last time, her final days on earth I hope are good ones, it kills me to know i will spend them away from her, working 12 hour days, I am trying to be strong, not crying infront of anyone, but sometimes it just to much to keep in, we have had 9+ good years together, she is my little angel, always willing to snugel when you are having an off day, greating every guest who comes to visit and always making them feel welcome. she hasto have the loudest pur in the world, letting you know just how happy she is to be sleeping on your lap. but these days are not so happy for her, though she dose not know really what it going on, she knows somthing is not right inside her, she has cancer, and has began to pee blood all over the house as the cancer is in her blader, making it unable to hold liquid for very long. this makes our house smell very bad, not that the love for my cat is not stronger than the smell, but it soon if not already, will becoume painful for her to pee and move for that matter, she has gotten quit thin, making her visualy not quite herself, more evidence that the end is soon to come, little dose she know, that this is it, that fat lady will sing for the last time this friday, I think when it comes time for me to go, I would like it to happen quickly, this knowing is way to hard. I must go, it is hard to type though teary eyes, and time with my tess is priceless and I need every second ....her are a few photos of my love from the summer, she is so beautiful its going to be hard to say good bye...........
